Calley,
As someone who has backsliden from time to time myself, I can certainly understand how you could be questioning. When we allow sin to continually dwell in our lives in an habitual manner, we are in some way "inviting darkness". I John 1:9 says, "1:9 But if we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous, forgiving us our sins and cleansing us from all unrighteousness."

Our Father is gracious and willing to forgive; He loves you more than you can ever comprehend.

D.